Obsessed

I think i would make a really good addict. If I did drugs, I think I would be really good at it. Now I am not encouraging drug use in any way but I am pretty sure I have one of those personalities who can become easily obsessed and consumed by certain things.

When something interests me I really get into it. For some reason in the 5th grade I was all about Bugle Boy and B.U.M clothing. I mean everything I wore was either one of those. In high school I got into wearing dickies and I tell you what, I had every color. Then is was all about geocaching and seeing how many I could get and the list goes on and on with, writing, drawing, cleaning, shoes, skateboards, guitars, youtube videos.

I mean i dont know if anyone else is like this but when something strikes me as interesting I really get into it. Right now it is wedding stuff and riddles. I am interested in wedding stuff cause I am getting married and riddle because someone gave me one and it took and 3 hours of thinking it over to solve. I think it's the challenge of them that gets me hooked. I dont really know why I thought I would share this but I did.

So any good riddles?

caught in the stages of life

There are the stages of life that we all live through; the stage where girls are developing faster than boys so they are a whole foot taller. The stage of life where we start developing independency from mom and dad. The life stage where we graduate High School and start to develop a sense of self beyond high school friends and activities. College aged years where we start the continuing struggle of where to go, what to do, how do I do this think called being a real adult. Getting married and still trying to figure out life, having kids, and still trying to figure out the ropes, and well you get the picture.

Right now, I feel like I’m in the middle. I’m engaged and excited about everything in life; fiancé, job, family, friends, passions. What I am discovering is even when you are content I still ask the question, “God what is your will?”

For me this is a tricky question because I know the answer, but it’s the details I get hung up on, and it’s the details that I should really worry about. I already know God’s will, I already know what he wants me to do with my life… and that is to love God with all my heart, soul, strength, mind and to secondly love my neighbor as myself. That is the easy part, knowing what God’s will for you. The hard part is that you can do that anywhere, and for a person like me who has a few goals and dreams, sometimes God has something stuff for you. Stuff that doesn’t line up with what you are doing at the moment or even planning to do.

For example, 7 years ago my life that I had planned would look a lot different than it would now. I would have never thought I would be working at a church, teaching God’s word. I mean I don’t ever remember reading my Bible and now it is something from which I teach.

God is truly amazing, and the more I think about Jesus, the more emotional I become and I am not a very emotional guy at all! It just goes to show that Jesus transforms you from the inside.

It’s easy to love God, actually, a better word is easier (because sometimes it can be hard) but for me it is hard to find “something” to really love God and others. I don’t know if this makes any sense, I’m really just trying to get my thoughts out there, but maybe the next thing I say will make more sense.

I would love to just finish school, I would love taking photos, I would love being a teacher, I would love packing boxes, I would love to write, I would love to just talk to people(the list goes on and none of these are any specific order)! The problem is that all the things I would love to do, I can be doing what God wants me to do, what I’m called to do, so how do I know what to do?
Ugh… the frustration lol. Thoughts? Oh yea… and in thinking about what I would love to do, I am also thinking about what my fiancé. (I take your thoughts and feelings into consideration)


Final thought that has nothing to do with any of this, or maybe it does. Think about your love for Jesus and the love you have for the things in your life. If Jesus were to take all the things you love in life, would you still love Jesus the same?