There are the stages of life that we all live through; the stage where girls are developing faster than boys so they are a whole foot taller. The stage of life where we start developing independency from mom and dad. The life stage where we graduate High School and start to develop a sense of self beyond high school friends and activities. College aged years where we start the continuing struggle of where to go, what to do, how do I do this think called being a real adult. Getting married and still trying to figure out life, having kids, and still trying to figure out the ropes, and well you get the picture.
Right now, I feel like I’m in the middle. I’m engaged and excited about everything in life; fiancé, job, family, friends, passions. What I am discovering is even when you are content I still ask the question, “God what is your will?”
For me this is a tricky question because I know the answer, but it’s the details I get hung up on, and it’s the details that I should really worry about. I already know God’s will, I already know what he wants me to do with my life… and that is to love God with all my heart, soul, strength, mind and to secondly love my neighbor as myself. That is the easy part, knowing what God’s will for you. The hard part is that you can do that anywhere, and for a person like me who has a few goals and dreams, sometimes God has something stuff for you. Stuff that doesn’t line up with what you are doing at the moment or even planning to do.
For example, 7 years ago my life that I had planned would look a lot different than it would now. I would have never thought I would be working at a church, teaching God’s word. I mean I don’t ever remember reading my Bible and now it is something from which I teach.
God is truly amazing, and the more I think about Jesus, the more emotional I become and I am not a very emotional guy at all! It just goes to show that Jesus transforms you from the inside.
It’s easy to love God, actually, a better word is easier (because sometimes it can be hard) but for me it is hard to find “something” to really love God and others. I don’t know if this makes any sense, I’m really just trying to get my thoughts out there, but maybe the next thing I say will make more sense.
I would love to just finish school, I would love taking photos, I would love being a teacher, I would love packing boxes, I would love to write, I would love to just talk to people(the list goes on and none of these are any specific order)! The problem is that all the things I would love to do, I can be doing what God wants me to do, what I’m called to do, so how do I know what to do?
Ugh… the frustration lol. Thoughts? Oh yea… and in thinking about what I would love to do, I am also thinking about what my fiancé. (I take your thoughts and feelings into consideration)
Final thought that has nothing to do with any of this, or maybe it does. Think about your love for Jesus and the love you have for the things in your life. If Jesus were to take all the things you love in life, would you still love Jesus the same?
1 comments:
Those are some tasty thoughts...
I have times in my life where I could care less about the details in my life....but thats normally when I'm happy with the path God is leading me on...
Then there's those days where things start to fall apart...those are the days that I freak out and need to know all the details in my life. Of course....when life is good...who cares?....cuz it's Good!
I, too, get a mini-panic attack when I ask myself "What does God want me to do?" Like you said, the general picture is pretty clear. It's like God has given us this Picture. This picture has no color no real image...just an outline. It then becomes our job to color the picture and find out what the heck we are trying to draw! We know we have to stay inside the lines....but thats pretty much it :)
Good thoughts....Good questions. When all else fails...Chuck E. Cheese!
joshua david
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